Segments in this Video

Seeking Self-forgiveness (06:10)


Kevin Sessums climbed Mt. Kilamanjaro to forgive himself for contracting HIV. While climbing, Sessums was surrounded by a plant symbolizing forgiveness.

Religion and Forgiveness (04:06)

Sessums considers himself a theist and is relieved to no longer identify as a Christian. Sessums felt shame and guilt while stuck in a good vs. evil Protestant worldview.

Sessum's Memoir (07:47)

Sessums generalized about African viewpoints related to HIV when his experience was limited to Tanzania. As a child, he enjoyed watching Tarzan and was sexually excited by the characters.

Sessum's Drug Use (06:52)

Sessums has lived in a sustained state of grief since the loss of his parents at an early age. His addiction does not need a reason; drug use was pleasurable.

Addiction Recovery (07:11)

Sessums has found meaning in surrendering his will and being of service in recovery. Addicts display narcissistic behavior, but drug use occurs for a variety of reasons.

American Drug Use (07:04)

Most Americans who use illegal drugs do so without life-altering consequences. Military professionals use sanctioned drugs to perform duties and do not feel an addict’s guilt.

Drug Addiction (03:50)

Scientists cannot see the difference between brains of drugs users and non-drug users. Dosing is the most important factor in drug use; drugs cannot be blamed for one’s problems.

Finding a Life Balance (05:46)

In preparation for using drugs, Sessums purchased protein shakes and wheatgrass for the recovery period. After two years, he still feels the pangs of addiction.

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I Left it on the Mountain

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What happens in the brain to allow us to overcome addiction? In I Left It on the Mountain, celebrity writer Kevin Sessums chronicles his years working for Andy Warhol at Interview and Tina Brown at Vanity Fair, countless nights of anonymous sex, his HIV Positive diagnosis, and his descent into addiction. It's also the chronicle of one man's spiritual redemption found while climbing to the top of Mt. Kilimanjaro. With Columbia neuroscientist Carl Hart, he charts the neural process of reinventing oneself. Carl Hart is Associate Professor of Psychology at Columbia University. His main area of research is the behavioral and neuropharmacological effects of psychoactive drugs in humans.

Length: 49 minutes

Item#: BVL143663

ISBN: 978-1-64198-384-6

Copyright date: ©2015

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